Yesterday I asked my party guests to answer 4 questions posed by a favorite blog that I read fairly often. After we noshed on the cheesy fondue and before we dug into the chocolate ice cream cake, we said goodbye to 2009 and opened up to the possibilities of 2010.
Here are my answers for the universe.
Things that I want to acknowledge about me in 2009:
1) Trusting Grant w/financial matters and allowing myself to go part-time for the 2009-2010 school year.
2) Moving into a house with 2 other couples, even though I was feeling really worried and scared
3) New level of love and commitment with my beloved partner Grant, better communication then we've ever had.
4) Understanding more of my own needs (for alone time, activities, spiritual practices, creative outlets, etc.)
5) Receiving my National Boards Certification in Adolescent and Young Adult Mathematics
6) All of the work I have done as an educator (my level of reflection, planning, and implementation), my growth as a result of my national boards work and my work with my coach.
7) Creating more creativity in my life: jewelry, painting, journaling, and home yoga practice.
8) Transitioning from "It's my job" to "It's my calling and ministry" to work with impoverished urban teens in Oakland, CA.
9) Knowing that I could be a much better teacher/leader if I worked part time.
10) Finishing my Masters Degree from National University in Instructional Leadership
Things that I grieve or need to forgive myself for:
1) Not moving more towards finding real happiness in my vocation or making goals/future plans about life in CA or elsewhere.
2) Moving was scary and hard, I grieve some independence of living by ourselves in the apartment
3) Feeling like I'm just treading water in regards to developing and sustaining spiritual practices
4) Dropping tasks at church, not being as reliable as I would have wanted to be.
5) Feeling sad because we've lived here for 5.5 years and I still don't feel like I have a real Tribe of supportive women friends and still not sure how to create that for myself.
I declare 2009 Complete! No more looking back at that vision painting that I completed back in July 2007 and feeling sorry for myself that I have not moved forward on any of the goals that I thought were on my path to full aliveness!
In 2010, I invite God to do some Rearranging. As I take a closer look at how I spend my time, what do I value, what do I think I need to live, what I think is missing from my life, what do I think I need to be happy and successful, what do I think I need to be loved and to love others, what do I think I need to give myself or give away, what I think about or focus my attention on, I invite God to come in and give me her advice because listening to the ways of this world hasn't gotten me very far.
How about you?
